Tuesday, 08 July 2008

• happiness..where art thou ?

  hahaha wala lang..ano ba sasabihin ko..ewan wahaha

  well. bakit ba ganun ang tao..kunwari.nakuha na nga nya yun..pero di pa rin nakukuntento..tulad ko wahaha!

  alam kong maganda naman ako at medyo sexy XD..matalino..aba scholar ata xD... may masayang family, may mga kaibigan..though.. unti lang yun masasabi kong intimate talaga dito sa "new place".. pero sa Pinas andun yun mga talagang tunay kong friends na kasama kong lumaki..kaya nga super miss ko ang Pinas e T_T.

  wel..ayos din naman ako sumayaw, naguguitar, interesting naman kausap diba ;D..

  pero.. kahit na meron akong mga ganito..indi ko parin minsan mahelp na icompare sarili ko sa iba..or tipong..indi mokontento.. well sige..tutal anonymous naman ako..haha..minsan..gusto ko na makipagcompete pa sa isa kong pinsan..gusto ko masmaganda ako sa kanya at masmaraming admirers etc. o kaya..gusto ko din..super daming friends..though meron naman ako..hai..indi ko lam kung ano ang gusto ko..pano ba ako sasaya talaga..

  I wanna learn talaga..na macontento..coz..kung tutuusin..ang dami naring binigay sa akin ni GOd.. pero..di ko parin talaga mapigilan na minsan madepress at mafeel na..some people have better life than me..or that.. my life is boring..argg.I don't know..pano mo ba mahahanap ang kasayahan talaga..well.yes i know..si God....pero..haii...matigas ulo ko..minsan..macocontent na..dahil nga.. sa mga positve thoughts regarding what God is offering etc.. pero..later on..tatamaan nanaman pag nandyan na..

  Minsan..indi ko rin mapigilan na.. magpatali..sa mga opinion ng tao..arg..pano ko ba magagawa na maging completely independent of wat people might think of me. ang hirap ano..

  kahit na alam mong..buhay mo ito.. na nasa sayo lahat nakadepende ang buhay mo..di mo parin mapigilan na maapektuhan ng mga..norms ng ibang tao.. mga opinion nila etc.. haii..

  I just wana be free..

  I actually grew up.in a really decent environment..

  nasa all girls ako lumaki..and i have to say..really nice people..as in parang safe ang environment.. and nakacenter kay God..

  Pero...later on..I felt like..I just wana be free.. free of the..normal things and rules..hai.. tipong wala ka ng paki sa anong pede mangyari etc. tipong u just enjoy life..

  but..kung iisipin mong mabuti..indi rin naman pede na.. as in FREE ka lang..

  dahil.. you know some of your actions will affect other people..

  kung sakaling nageenjoy ka nga sa ginagawa mo..minsan naman..nakakasama ito sa iba. then syempre..tatamaan ka ng guilt..

  like for example..ako wahaha.. minsan gusto ko makipaglaro lang..kasi..medyo enjoy rin naman diba..ang magbola.. or makakuha ng mga gifts etc... pero.. pag inamin mo na sa sarili mo o sa kanya.. na laro lang yun dahil nageenjoy ka.....napakasakit..din sa both sides..well for me..kasi..maguguilty ka..

  hay..napaka complicated..

  siguro..nasa maling bagay ko lang dinedepend ang kasayahan..

  PEro sana..mahanap ko na..kung saan talaga iyun..at kung mahanap ko na.. pls pray for me..na abutin ko.. na wag akong matakot..o kung ano man..

  pag dating naman sa insecurities..sana..matutunan ko na talaga.. na "indi lahat ay makukuha ko".

  pero siguro..iyun narin ang maganda about life....learning to appreciate what you have.. haii..ewan.. ang gulo ng isip ko..pero alam ko..mahahanap ko rin ang hinahanap ko.

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• video

  arg i dont know yet how to upload videos here..lol noob pa ako e xD

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• alone x.x

  ayan I have an idea na wat to share ;D..

  Well my cousin sent me video in facebook ah basta try nyo iwatch..then maybe you can give me some of your opinions about it..;D

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  okay..ito..

  ang sabi ng pinsan ko :

  "ibig sabihin noon.. walang tutulong sau.. akhti sino kahit teacher kahit parents... they can only help you so far...
  but beyond that.. dapat ikaw lang ang pwede sumugod...
  so.. kelangan mo maging malakas.. at gwapo katulad ko.. =D
  hahaha XD
  ang lalim meehn"    

  - okay din yun sinabi nya noh..kung hindi lang hinaluan ng ka-kapalan mwahaha

   

  then..let me highlight some of the things that people said about it:

   

  • everybody have friends, family, girlfriend or boyfriend, but we are alone, because is our mind and body, and at the end depends on us what we are going to do for ourselfs
    
    Are we going to fight?
    Are we going to share?
    Or simple, we are not going to do anything?
    
  • There are 4 kinds of people when it comes to getting something.
    -The ones who refuse to take it.
    -The ones who pursue it, never grasping hold.
    -The ones who have it handed to them.

   -those who pursue and actually achieving.

  I think the book of life is what seems as if 'Everyone' is getting but only you don't. I think most people feel this way when we think, "why do all these people get something and not me?"
  
  But as people who don't know what life is, we can pursue it and look for the answers to what it is. You can say, Stanley's the one who learned the most important lesson.
  
  And well Garth's the guy who is the obstacle in Stanley's life to find about what 'life' is.
  • it's saying that life is unfair, that people won't share with you whatever they have, even if that is important life lessons/secrets. People are selfish, and self-centered, in other words. The only person that has actually learned what life was, therefore, was the boy who ran to his teacher to tell her that Goth wouldn't share. He didn't need to read a paper to learn what life was. I personally think that this is life for the people who don't experienced God's love through Jesus!
  • If you want something in life, you got to work for it and not wait for somebody to hand it to you.

  well.. there's a lot actually but.. You can visit it anyways..

  ang coincidence din lang kasi na sinend sa akin ito ng cousin ko..when i was having my emo day today..lol bihira lang naman yun..pero I dont know tinamaan lang ako ngayon..siguro namimiss ko lang kasi si mi amore hahaha

  pero..sa una..medyo pessimistic ang dating sa akin nito haha..kasi naman noh..parang sinasabi na "loner ka" wahaha..pero..nung pinanood ko ulit.. i saw na.. may malalim pang sinasabi itong video..

  I think it is telling us not to depend on others para malaman natin kung ano ang life.. We should not based our happiness sa ibang tao.. kasi they're not gona be here with us forever. Sa huli..nagiisa ka lang.

  And tulad  nga ng mga sinabi ng most people sa comments.. tayo lang ang pumipili kung aabutin ba natin "iyun" o kung hahanapin natin ang tunay na meaning ng life..ng happiness etc.

  ahh..ewan halos lahat naman kasi sinabi na ng mga youtube people.dun nyo nalang basahin hahaha. masokay pa sila magexplain. xD. yun din naman ang mga thoughts ko e.

   

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• intro daw xD

  hmm.. I just felt like making a new blog. I dont really know how to start it..

  Hmm..Maybe telling some things about me will do.

  - i plan to keep my self anonymous

  - I love music so much

  - typically a positive person though, I have some moments of emo-ness

  - I wanna be busy in a good way

  - Have so many plans in life

  - I love my family and im so blessed to have them

  - I love guitars

  - I love dancing and parties

  - Still adapting to this new country i'm in

  - I'm impractically inloved with someone.

  hihi. guess thats it for now

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• Hi everyone! I'm just getting started on Xanga... Drop me a comment if you've got some ideas on what to do first - or just to say, "Hi!" :-)

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